The moral of today's blog is you may not fuck with politics but politics will absolutely fuck up every part of your life❣ 💖✨
They're calling me the savior of the stray kitties
08:32:29 PM Oct/04/2025
I've been hesitant to post this because the story didn't have a satisfying conclusion but I think it's approaching one. Recently I saw a poor sick feral kitten in my yard and started leaving it food, water and even a sheter that was gifted to me from a local cat saver. Because this blog has a much father reach than my nextdoor account I won't be giving any identifying iformation on the person who has been helping me.
Here's some pictures I've taken of the kitten but TW they have noticeable parasites. Sorry for the lack of close up pictures, the creature is easily startled and I didn't want to taumatize it.
Naturally, because I have a soul I made an attempt to capture this kitten with the intent of treating it's wounds and giving it an indoor home. I I wasn't successful BUT I managed to save a different feral kitten! Coincidentally also a tabby cat. Here's some pictures of them in the trap:
After her capture she was spayed and given the name Missy, according to her foster she's adjusted to home life very nicely and likes to give hugs! Here's a picture of her with her foster parent:
While the original kitten is still sadly at large (Missy didn't have any parasites so we know they aren't the same cat) I still feel really happy and accomplished that I successfully changed Missy's life for the better and I wanted to share this success on my blog.
Unrelated to the main post: I've decided I'm just going to go ahead and post the unfinished page I've been working on. I just wanted to think about and share something more positive and uplifting before I did because it's been a serious constant drain on my mental health alongside the current state of the world. I really didn't want to butwith the cat stuff and me hitting my head last week and even more fuckshit with my meds if I don't just pull the trigger on it it'll never be posted.
The moral of today's blog is be kind to every creature, be they big or small 💖✨
Quick PSA distro boost
09:51:26 PM Sep/30/2025
I made some distro's about TIIVE and NSMP-7 in open dyslexic with alt text. I'll make a page with them later but here's every post I've made with them so you can quickly boost my existing posts. I feel like posti8ng them here would lead them to just getting buried by future blog posts and make them harder to find in the future.
If you're in the Tranarchy webring I already shared everything there as well, alt text included. All of hese links open in a new tab so if you're on desktop you can boost them quickly and efficiently.
The moral of today's blog is: Respect trans existence or expect trans resistence 💖✨
Swift and sincere apology to whom I may have offended/srs
07:53:38 PM Sep/24/2025
I noticed I lost a follower and a like I previously had on my index and on neocities. My reaction might be impacted by not having access to my anxiety meds so I'm sorry if I'm overreacting here./gen
Despite my disabilities and challenges I do my best to treat everyone I interact with kindly and I've made my website accessible to the best of my current ability because I genuinely think it's important.
My intent is only to offend people who want to harm minorities, not my own community. I do all the things I do to help people and I want this website to be a helpful tool for anyone who needs it right now with all the happenings in the US in particular.
If there is anything wrong with the general accessibility of my website or said anything harmful or just overlooked something important please reach out to me directly! I'm a trantifa supersolider tyrying to make the world a better place and I know I can't do it alone so I'm open to constructive critique as long as I'm not expected to censor my beliefs.
The only people who should be offended by what I say are Nazi's and if I've somehow taken a misstep P L E A S E tell me so I can fix it ASAP! I'm stil working on the page I've mentioned a few times now because I PROMISE I'm gonna put that thing out in a few days no matter what it takes idgaf if I fucking die in the process atp so I can't guarantee an instant response but I will get back to you and get to work in a timely fashion.
The moral of today's blog is that I love you all platonically❣ 😎✌💖✨
Still working on the page.../srs
03:40:45 AM Sep/24/2025
Just got done with a major chunk of the work, I just have to repeat the process of:
Collecting timestamps
Taking notes on each timestamp
Taking screenshots of important moments
Backing up those screenshots on postimg
Adding alt text to those screenshots
Sounds easy but I gotta rinse and repeat this ten more times with content that is both very mind-numbingly surface level and hateful. This has taken long enough for me to start laughing at things that are not funny.
PLEASE supprt my website when I take my inevitable break after this 💔
The moral of today's blog is: my back hurts from bad posture 💖✨
A little about the upcoming page... It's not fun to work on...
08:43:06 PM Sep/17/2025
Sorry for preemptively saving this before putting anything here my bad.
I can't say too much before my page goes live in the interest of saving my skin if things go awry but the reason I'm working day and night is: I'm exposing a TERF in the oldweb space. It's serious.
This person plays off everything as a joke while advocating for transgender people to be killed. They profit off of this harmful rhetoric and draw gross charicatures of trans women specifically.
I'm still in the process of documenting everything they've said and done that's relevant. I thought I had everything but then I found more stuff. I also realize I have to use more tactful and concise words than I normally do and posting this in an unfinished state (like I did with theradqueer page) could potentially weaken the case against this person so I want to make sure I have everything that's needed.
Gradually losing my medication and healthcare while working on this and trying to stay up to date on my country's politics has made working on this really difficult. There are moments where I cannot fight the cmpulsin to physically get up and walk away from what I'm looking at so naturally, the process of putting all this together has taken longer than it otherwise would have.
When everything is completed though, at the bottom of the page I will have all the links and guides and evidence needed for everyone to report this person on every platform and have the offensive material removed. This limits everyone else's exposure and helps put an end to whatever pathetic career they're trying to build doing this.
They also have ties to a group of terminally online neo-nazi's who have an interest in oldweb spaces, because of course they do.
The moral of today's blog is: Scratch a TERF and a nazi bleeds 💖✨
I'm out of my ADHD meds now. Yay... 😟
09:53:12 PM Sep/16/2025
TW for a lot of screaming and venting and throwing up and clawing at the walls of my enclosure. (I am in psychological distress)
Yeah, I still don’t have a job or health insurance or any assisstance from the state because fuck me, I’m just another CRAAAAAZZZYY trans of gendrr who “DoEsN’t WaNt To WoRk”/s
I am losing my mind. I am actually losing my mind because I don’t know how I’m supposed to be a trantifa supersolider in these fuckass conditions?
Every day I have to deal with people who don'tREFUSE to understand conditions and diminish everything I go through and it feels hopeless to reach out for help online from strangers but I don’t have any other fucking options!
I can’t get a call back from any place I apply to, my store completely failed because of goddamn lecherous “listing fees”, I keep getting silence from the government and my own mother keeps fucking screaming at me that I’m lazy and stupid and it’s all my fault that no one is helping me.
I haven’t had any IRL friends I can talk to for like 3-5 years now. Everyone I knew when I was in school decided to be a complete asshole about my transition or just stopped talking to me after graduation. I’m on my own private island of anguish and misery and no one I talk to seems to fucking care.
Anyway, if you see my shit on social media, share it or don’t. I am going to try to hyperfocus on this webpage I’ve been working on because the subject matter is important.
give it up for day 15 🙂
09:02:04 PM Sep/14/2025
Yeah I'm on day 15 without being able to afford my antidepressants so you already know imma be ranting and raving in this one fellas🗣‼‼🔥🔥🔥
please end my suffering
Today I woke up to realizing that my belly button piercing, which was supposed to be almost done healing was not healing and had been lowly rejecting this entire time. So I had to get it removed because I couldn't take it out myself. This is gonna sound dramatic but I cried shortly after realizing that because this has been healing since May 7th dawg. Shit sucks fr.
I also woke up to mom telling me the anti abortion clinic is hiring, because of course she did,and we had to have a talk about how they would not hire me because of who I am and my beliefs. We also talked about Charlie Kirk and I had to tell her "No mom, he wasn't saying Trans people are the victims of mass shootings." and I did my best to educate her on what he believed in. Thankfully she realized he was an asshole "but he still had a family." and like I don't wanna cringe at her because she's a normie who genuinely didn't know anything and she would say that about other people but the phrasing was still upsetting. I also had to tell her that "No mom a trans man is someone who is FtM" and I had to hold back saying "like me" because I knew that would lead to an argument and "TRANS PEOPLE MAKE EVERYTHING SOOO CONFUSING!" so I just tried my best to tell her that calling the trans woman a man was done on purpose to be malicious but I don't know if it registered at all.
It's probably very easy to discern that I have almost no energy right now. Isn't being unmedicated amazing?/sarcasm
Another thing is that I saw a cat in my yard today. I wrote about it on Instagram. The short version of the story is that they startled me so I scared them away when I was startled and I felt guilty for reacting the way I did. Poor kitty...
My final note: I'm still working on the page I said I was working on last night. Important things need to be done and it CANNOT be released in the current state it's in. You'll see it when it's done.
Moral of today's blog is: Practice more self awareness, be kind and take your fucking pills. 💖✨
Short kinda devloggly very rambly type post
09:07:13 PM Sep/12/2025
Just wanted to announce on my blog that yes I joined some affiliate programs, you can find all the links I currently have on the referrals page in the top menu.
I created the page and joined those referral programs for the same reasons I put donation links on the right side of most of my web pages: I’m disabled, unemployed, struggling to receive ANY government benefits and living off of the kindness and consideration of others.
I hate being redundant but there are people who genuinely believe that going to left leaning protests means that like the Democratic party, Illuminati or ““Big Trans”” (???) pay my bills with evil dark woke pronoun dollars. If that were the case I would have my medication??? I would have gas in my car??? Did my check get lost in the mail or something??? Where’s the secret kabaal supposedly funding immigrant bottom surgeries in prison??? I must have missed a major memo at the last Free Mason “Make America Gay Again” meeting ‘cause I’m not seeing any million dollar offshore accounts in my name.
I know this is obvious to any fellow queer disabled leftists but I wanna make this very clear: I am NOT compensated in ANY capacity for the work that I do for the communities I’m part of. I do all of this because it’s the right thing to do and unfortunately no good deed goes unpunished.
I also, despite not liking capitalism, kind of have to live under it so in order to eat I have to have money for food. It sucks but it’s true.
I tried having an eco-friendly pride store and I’m trying to bring it back so people can support me without just giving their money away like I’m a one man charity but I keep running into issues with overhead costs and other boring backend stuff so having these referrals is the best middle ground option I have for people who want to support me but need something in return.
Anyway, I'm trying to get back into the swing of making new content for the site and improving existing stuff so I feel less like a hopeless beggar. I just felt the need to say this because despite being class conscious and all that I still feel insecure and uncomfortable asking for the things I need to exist due to a combination of depression and cruel capitalist rhetoric being directed at me due to the fact my disabilities are completely invisible to normies.
If you don't ever watch the news or live under a rock: Charlie Kirk is dead and some people are sad about it.
I'm not one of them. lol.
There's a lot of things currently being said about how he was a father and I guess he had a wife? I don't know anything about his personal life but I know that when he was shot he was actively spreading the lie that trans people are more likely to be mass shooters. Wanna talk about how this guy lived? How he died for his frozen fucking peaches? Let's do it.
Charles Kirkland built his entire career the way many Ben Shapiro clones have; going to college campuses and starting shit to film people's reactions to the insane shit that they say only to pull out an uno reverse card and gaslight not only the victim in the video but the audience into thinking that anyone who reacts to obviously cruel and hateful rhetoric is completely insane and incapable of thinking logically.
I am making this blog post because wannabe Captain Kirk who said: "Empathy is overrated" and spent his entire career laundering hateful rhetoric to blind the masses to it is being talked about and even praised as if he never did that. Wanna know why there's so much civil unrest? Why people can't talk to their families at Thanksgiving? Why so many people feel unsafe just existing in this country? It's because we have an entire industry of losers walking out of a factory spreading endless propaganda about fucking gay frogs and making people think twice about being friends with their neighbors because they're a different race.
You cannot support civility politics and act like stochastic terrorism is acceptable.
I do not feel a shred of sympathy for a man who dedicated his entire career spreading lies with the purpose of coaxing strangers into killing people like me because I had the audacity to be different from him.
I know all his fans are going to tell me that his whole thing was debating people but like, therein lies the issue. He debated other minority groups rights to exist and demanded standards of them he never held himself to because it was never about having a public forum discussion, it was all about ridiculing societal "others" and doing everything possible to make them miserable only to switch it around and go "Well they're sensitive little babies!" Do you seriously think people going about their day would be able to perfectly and professionally advocate for themselves when randomly accosted by a stranger? There's a reason why so many other conservatives use the same strategy, it's because as a society we have taught them not only do gaslighting and gishgalloping work but we also taught them that we love to blame the victim if they make a fool of themselves.
This was never about politics, it was about an industry being built on the financial gains that came from scapegoating minorities for all of society's shortcomings. Until we all call this rhetoric exactly what it is and dismantle the industry that created Charlie Kirk it will never end.
I also wanna say before I close this entry:
I have sympathy for the people who were present and witnessed the shooting. As contemptible as their views may be, watching a person they looked up to die in front of them was undoubtedly a traumatic experience and my main concern from this event is that his death has likely already radicalized anyone who so much as knows his name. They will likely live the rest of their lives afraid of anyone who thinks differently from them. They believed his debates were real so they believe that with his death the time for debate has ended. Not to mention so many people were trying to leave at once their cars completely clogged the roads. The shooter was at large for several hours and there's a non-zero chance they grabbed the wrong person a second time. When experiencing such an event from the inside it's difficult to discern or understand that the shooter's intention was to get rid of a specific target. People watching videos online interact with them on the basis of and understanding that "It's the Charlie Kirk shooting" and can therefore extrapolate he was the sole target. When you watch a human being in front of you die, having context as to what exactly is happening or why is sometimes a luxury. There were witnesses that expressed fear because they didn't know if they would be next. As much as I hate this guy, I really can't overlook the mental and emotional long term impact his death will have on them and by extension our society.
I meant to post on my blog a couple days ago but I ran out of my antidepressants. I also had some MS issues related to that because of course 😕 so I’ve been really weak and feeling my brain chemistry get enshittified.
So, without getting into too much detail (to protect identities ofc) I went to a couple queer solidarity events because there was a hate crime in a nearby city and I just wanted to help because I thought it would be kind of like a protest? But everything was a lot more chill than I thought and I actually met some really cool people! I literally made new friends that I hung out with all day! We started with a lot of sidewalk art and then later there was another thing with free food and music and at one point someone brought chalk so we also ended the night on more drawings.
I thought the first event was gonna be just a rainbow crosswalk so I didn’t come with any plans on what to draw and just kinda decided to wing it and help other people fill in what they were drawing. I didn’t really draw anything impressive but I thought I’d take pictures of my contributions because I wanted to be able to point out the stuff I made. I’m also used to the protest atmosphere of people mostly not wanting their pictures taken at stuff like this so they seemed like the best things to take pictures of.
For the first time ever I wore a binder in public! I thought it would be more intense of an experience but actually? Even with the heat (MS trigger) it really wasn’t so bad! I didn’t feel like I was suffocating or anything at any point and I even incorporated it into my outfit really well imo.
The only other interesting thing I have to add is that I made kandi bracelets for the victims to help them feel seen and heard. I won’t be posting pictures because they contain names and pronouns but I can tell you they were totally stoked about getting them!
The moral of today’s blog is: be kind to others and stay true to yourself 💖✨
This week has been really crazy! 💫😵💫
11:30:02 PM Aug/12/2025
So far I’ve:
Taken my last antibiotics
Taken my dog to the vet
Found a new local business
Applied for jobs that help the community
Been threatened with violence
Made charms for no reason
Made my gf a necklace for no reason
Ironed cool Hello Kitty patches onto my pants
Got a gift card for being nice to strangers
And it’s ONLY TUESDAY!! I seriously can’t believe I’ve done so much this week and so much has happened. Life is fucking wild sometimes.
The moral of today’s blog is: anything can happen anytime, anywhere and for literally any reason. 💖✨
Been feeling really down lately…
05:01:54 PM Aug/06/2025
I have some ongoing issues in my personal life that are difficult to manage right now. I won’t go into it but it’s why I’ve been really moody on status.cafe and bluesky. I thought giving myself distance from the never ending flow of bad news would help but all I did was accidentally isolate myself further. Whoops…
Something that’s contributing is: my finger has an infection and it really hurt to do anything with my hands for a few days. It doesn’t hurt anymore but the antibiotics are having a disagreement with my other medications and it’s causing problems I don’t want to disturb or gross anyone out with.
I’m sorry if my lack of presence and vague posts made anyone upset, it was not my intention.
Speaking of posts and presence, there’s an issue with my bluesky handle I don’t know how to resolve. It was fine for months but as of today it’s giving me a weird error? At first it wasn’t tolerating the domain at all but then something happened where it recognizes my domain and accepts it but my handle doesn’t update for some reason. I don’t know what’s up with that. Super weird.
To make things more positive and lighten up the mood here, I’m actually doing really good in terms of fighting the infection! My doctor’s visit was free and the antibiotics were only $6 and I only have to take them for 2 more days!
I guess the moral of today's blog is to take better care of yourself 💖✨
Spray paint is “Political Violence” apparently
10:39:04 AM Jul/29/2025
You heard that right folks somebody better lock up the fucking Home Depot, cause the street artists have some choice shades of red regarding the Epstein files.
Oh but THANK GOD the staff were safe from the menacing red acrylic mist and mean words! Who knows what could have happened if they came in contact with it! Heaven forbid! I'm so glad multiple outlets covered this distressing, heartwrenching, soulcrushing, agonizing, unbelievablyIMPORTANT STORY RELEVANT TO PUBLIC INTEREST AND VICTIMS OF SERIOUS CRIMES!!
Jokes aside, if the GOP (or anyone in power) has an issue with shit like this maybe they should…
Oh, I dunno…
Release the Epstein files? Maybe even have some consequences for whoever is on that client list? But nope, instead it’s just bullshit about “PoLiTiCaL vIoLeNcE!” like seriously it’s fucking paint that probably costs $7 at Walmart, the right is so fucking dramatic and hypocritical. These people will celebrate the murder of their opponents on Twitter but they get a little mess on their window and suddenly it’s the end of the world like grow up.
Also, “Mental Illness is not a crime” is a great album title. I'm definitely using this as an album cover if I ever figure out how FL studio works.
What if I treated this like a journal haha
02:40:23 PM Jul/28/2025
This morning I did my part not only getting my clicks in (Free Palestine btw) but I also sent emails and made a bunch of posts for the Itch/Steam thing against Collective Shout. I kinda don't have the energy to repeat myself and chances are you already know that group is just full of SWERF's who hate human freedom and anything fun. Oh and that the leader likes the movie cuties, bet ya love thinking of the kids huh? Weirdo's.
Anyway, other than doing that I don't think I've done much else today. At least I don't feel like I've done anything of note? If I have it's completely slipped my mind.
I'm working on some new stuff not just for my website but for my webring, it's not finished yet but you'll see it in the cool shit section when it is. I'll also post it in a few places so if you follow the website on the neocities profile you'll see it.
I'll post a new blog entry if I do anything cool I guess? I'm still trying to find purpose in this page tbh because I know if I completely walk away from the other platforms I'm on, people will definetly be put off by the desktop centric layout and buggyness on mobile. The lack of notifications also means people are less likely to come back. Anyway I promise not to forget about this blog and let it die! Buh-bye! 😎✌💖✨
we do be blogging
11:05:01 PM Jul/22/2025
I think other than adding widgets and accidentally poisoning myself today I don't have much to talk about.
How I poisoned myself: I didn't know canned food could expire. I panicked for a while but I think I'm okay, other than a headache I don't really have symptoms of food poisoning. The can looked completely fine and the food I ate tasted okay so hopefully nothing bad happens... 🤞
The moral of todays blog is: do not poison yourself, googling what can happen is scary! 😁💖✨
I am a goddamn transgender
09:41:37 PM Jul/21/2025
a minoute ago this page was full of broken CSS, insanity and the word "penis" over and over. now it is a half functioning ugly ass blog! I can't wait to fill it with my deranged unmedicated thoughts! 🥰 💖 ✨
had to make a new distro because hahahhahahahahaha democracy is dead I am not ok rn
07:55:54 PM Oct/12/2025
